Saturday, April 17, 2021

Back Page.

The back page always have spontaneous stories,
...just as the kids who sits at the back of the class,
Some of my classmate who sits at the back has become enforcement officer, some married a rich wife, some business owners.

I myself used to sit at the back of the class (the smart kids class) ; which i hated, one time ago.. for 6 months i think, then deliberately caused  being kicked out of that class to another class (the tiada masa depan class) 
...guess i have the tendency to refuse to sit among my supposed peers and rather choose who i feel like it...

In a negative perspective its called 'cheating' to deliberately being transfer to last class.
In a positive light : its called 'strategy' because then i deny all expectation of being one of the smart kids.

The truth is i hated competition, in that A class its a rat race who gets the highest marks and contribute to school statistic.
But i want to live, i want to know who my friend is, how they live their life, why some of their houses use white fluorescent lamps and some uses orange bulbs...

So make careful plans but be spontaneous at our approach.. #livealittle 

Happy Saturday ya'll!

Friday, August 9, 2019

2 hour and 15 minutes reimbursed

im curious...
so if you visited a country that the time zone is delayed 2 hours.
Do your body...adjust to it?
say...you usually wake up at 5am originally, do you wake up 3am at the current place?
or that you usually do your morning dump at 7am...how about at the new place?...business at usual? or the urge wakes you up at 5am...
well...lets find out the next couple of days😊
Welcome To Nepal.

Monday, July 29, 2019

My Journey Thru Fitness

i remember,
when in 2018,
i went to collect for my race pack of Borneo Marathon.

I saw this lady,
walking around behind the counter carrying her water bottle,
she's one of the organizer personel.

I remember,
looking at her and thinking,
Geez...i bet all those drinking water made her so fit.
She was about 40 years old,
maybe plus,
She was walking around with her back on straight posture.
Her agility,
The way her muscle contract and release..

I thought that was all water.

But,
a year later.

I know better.

What i didn't see,
is that,
she probably doing crunches(plus bicycle crunches) 15 seconds, 3 reps a day with 5 second intervals.
She might do 1 minute and a half of planking front and side to side each.
She did leg raises, hamstring raise, squats,lunges,spider and mountain climb and...push up,

Daily.

I bet,
that is what,
i didn't see.

😊

Its easier to compliment people based on simple excuses.
But, to really offer kudos towards them for the 'real' things they did is almost impossible.

We usually just call them,
Crazy.

Saturday, July 27, 2019

Road to Dean List PJJ-USM

First of,
What Is Dean List?
After asking around, Dean List is the annual list of students who gets a GPA of 3.5 pointer.
Some universities sets 3.67 but USM fix it at 3.5.
Dean List is also bound to quota limit, which is another way of saying the Board decided who gets to be listed.
The board sets the quota as how many students according to programes ie, Science 5-10 students, Social Science 5-7 students, Literature 5 students etc.
Honestly, there is still a major confusion as to if i am qualified for Dean List. Some says instead of GPA, its the CGPA that qualify the Dean List. Yet, some says the CGPA is for First Class (a higher category) who gets a CGPA above 3.5 every year and they're the ones who get the best seat in the hall during convocation hihi
So why Dean List?
well...i heard they're(USM) giving out RM500 incentive, i dont know hahaha
But other than that to me, it proves (at least to myself) that im not just...doing further study but i...i get the gist, the core of the knowledge that i have studied.
Also, i guess i made Sabahan proud that me ; Tanak Sabah walk that stage and....smile for the camera hahah

So, these are my journey so far, im looking at the CGPA instead of GPA, because im not even sure if i got listed this year so i tend to overlook the GPA to ensure less heartbroken hahah, no, its okay i have come to terms and fully accepted if i miss my chance again this year.

year 1 : short by 0.09
year 2 : short by 0.07
year 3 : short by 0.04

...maybe Tuhan tidak bagi saya dekan mungkin kerana jika saya dapat, saya mungkin akan menggunakannya untuk membangga diri.

Lalu Tuhan hanya berikan saya progress supaya saya yakin bahawa segala sesuatu yang baik pasti indah pada waktunya.

I still got 2 round/semester as a fighting chance.

Amazingly, compared to last year's reaction to failure...i didn't even cry at this year's failure


Friday, July 26, 2019

Road to ABC Aug '19 Part.1

So...its, 
barely 2 weeks before the exploration of yet another adventure (provided her knees allowed her)

Hence, i decided to share my Famous Inventory for Summer Trek of Annapurna Base Camp(sarcastically of course...)
Here goes...

Footwear
1.Ysandal :these are a specialised sandal for recovery and long distance running as it absorbs impact to prevent injury on the knees and made from high quality rubber...will do review on this soon
2. Strap sandal : any will do, so long that it has good grip and easily removed rubbles
3. Hiking shoes : i bring my Salomon xa Kuban
4. Thick socks : preference wooly, August is not snowy season instead its rainy season yet, it can get chilly at night.
5. Toe socks : best to prevent blister for long hours hike or run, you can wear it together with strap sandals for comfort.
6. Gaiters : just to ensure rubbles did'nt get into your shoes
(photos for illustration purpose only, this one is taken during the 2 days 1 nite trip to Mount Mantapok, Ranau, Sabah, Borneo. I have'nt took the one for ABC yet, i doubt it fits the frame hahah)

Accesories
1. Thermal gloves : mine is only thermal so its not practical for outdoor wear, best to get a pair with waterproof feature
2. Knee support : these are not just accesory for me, instead its mandatory due to injury from full marathon last April, these has become a neccesity.
3. Brim hat : these are more practical for full day hiking instead of a cap or a visor because of its full coverage
4. Umbrella : main challenge fro Annapurna base camp circuit are the long hours hike and the gradual increase of elevation(causing AMS) but its almost leisure instead of gruelling and so you can still make use your hand to hold yourr umbrella if it rains during the hike 
5. Windbreaker : rainy season also brings wind with it, mine is not a lightweight but i hope it still works its magic
6. Sarung : This one is my friend's Zarin idea of celebrating Eid ul Adha in Nepal.
7. Walking stick/pole : i bring one from my last Borneo Ultra Trail Marathon and planing to buy another one in Kathmandu.
8. Buff : for dust, cold air and wipe off sweats
9. face mask : not neccesary but if you plan to take cute pictures then hey, why not :)
10. Clothes peg : im gonna use these to hang my inner hijab on my day pack and dry it under the sun while hiking
11. Headlamp + battery : in case you need the toilet visit at night
12. Foot/hand warmer : i never use them, but im a type of person who can't handle cold temperature 
13. Hot water pouch : -ditto- this one is to put inside the sleeping bag at night
14. Telekung & sejadah : i only take the mini sejadah juz enough for the head area and a nylon telekung
15. Poncho : because August is the rainy season

Underwear 
1. Sports bra : bring at least 9 pair so you could change to a new pair every day during the hike
2. Normal bra : these are for the free at leisure days in hotels and transits
3. Disposable underwear : my first time to try it out...i hope i wont get yeast infection hahaha
4. Panties : proper ones hihi for leisure activities in hotels

Medication
1. Minyak Bidara : i found this work out on my knees to subdue the pain
2. Counterpain : Analgesic cream
3. Hurix muscle : for muscle pain
4. Hurix Flu : my nose tends to get congested in cold weather
5. Charcoal tablets : helps with bloated stomach due to indigestion
6. Pil chi Kit Tec Aun : for stomach pain and diarhhea
7. Diamox : for Acute mountain sickness and climatizing
8. Paracetamol : for general headache and painkiller
9. Ostematrix : my daily supplement for bones
10. B-Complex : -ditto- this one is...my 'happy pill' hihi also for energy booster
11. SR Vit C : -ditto- for general well being
12. Koyok (i dont know else to call them hahah) : muscles patch
13. First Aid Kit : including gauze,medical tape,plaster,compression bandages
14. ORS : for reyhdration and prevent and helps muscle cramp
15. Insect repellant : sometimes...there shall be leeches hahah

Toiletries/grooming/hygiene
1. Vaseline -for blister, dry hands, moisturizer, multi-purpose item
2. Nivea hand cream : i have...badly wrinkle hands haha
3. Hand sanitizer : comes handy when you took snack/meal break during the hike
4. Hair Comb : regardless how short your hair and regardless how small your comb, everything must be listed
5. Cetaphil : face moisturizer
6. Aloe Vera : i use these for night mask plus its also good for sunburn or after-sun
7. Facial wash : if possible pack it in smaller tube
8. Toothpaste + brush : pack the ones just the size for 3 weeks trip
9. Shower gel : pack these in smaller bottle too
10. Bath Towel : pick quick-dry material and medium size, mine is 50 x 100cm
11. Hand Towel : if you dont want to get mix up between your sweat and wiping hands, if you dont mind the buff should suffice.
12. Lip balm/tint : you can use vaseline for balm but the lip tint is to ensure you look dandy tho' miserable(tired) hahah
13. Body Mist : practically useful as, shower cost you RM20 per use hahaha
14. Deadorant : -ditto-
15. Wet tissue : after snacking by the side of the trail with no water nearby

* you can add sunblock if you used to applying it

Outfit
1. Dri-fit tshirt + armsleeves : preferably atheletic fit for agility
2. Compression Pants : to prevent injury and as inner at higher elevation
3. Hiking pants : pick quick dry and lightweight material
4. Down jacket : for use at the base camp (elevation 4100m ++)
5. Short pants for layer : just...for style i guess hahah
6. Longjohns : as pyjama
7. Sweater/fleece jacket : as outer wear during resting and overnight at tea houses
8. Casual wear : for sightseeing around town, market and hotel area
9. Nashata Sports hijab : because they're quick dry

Food
1. Magic biscuit : this particular crackers is very filling,i think
2. Dates : excellent source of carb as glycogen replinishment
3. Candied ginger : to regulate body temperature
4. Sambal : any kind will do as extra flavor to the meals included in the hiking package
5. CEO coffee : my fave coffee tho'

Gadget
1. International adaptor : invest on buying your own so you have the liberty to use it all night long instead of waiting for your turn
2. Garmin recharger : for your watch 
3. Mp3 : who dont need music anyway??
4. Hp recharger : its quite costly to purchase a network coverage but for a quick selfie you need your hp all the time
5. Mini powerbank : because the normal one weight almost half a kilo hahah
6. DSLR & Micro SDs : make sure you bring extra micro SD hihi

Bags
1. 50L backpack + waterproof cover : im flying Malindo which only give me 25kg free cargo
2. Daypack + water bladder : where you store food, medication,gadget and water
3. Zippered plastic bag : as storage for your items you didn't bring during the hike and keep it at the hotel.
4. Sealed plastic bag : for passport and money

well...i hope i listed everything and lets do this💪

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me, 
      Black as the pit from pole to pole, 
I thank whatever gods may be 
      For my unconquerable soul. 

In the fell clutch of circumstance 
      I have not winced nor cried aloud. 
Under the bludgeonings of chance 
      My head is bloody, but unbowed. 

Beyond this place of wrath and tears 
      Looms but the Horror of the shade, 
And yet the menace of the years 
      Finds and shall find me unafraid. 

It matters not how strait the gate, 
      How charged with punishments the scroll, 
I am the master of my fate, 
      I am the captain of my soul. 

Pineapple Ridge

here i am,
dreaming that im at the top of that endless peak hills.

My eyes burned as my sweat runs beneath my eyebrow,
and my knee is crying, 
begging the God above to be spared.

As i step ahead i told myself,
"This.
This is what you're made of"
That lingers, 
yet it comes and go,
Like a haze instead of a vapour.

My heart ache when a surge of internal curiosities hit me,
"why are you not stronger?
"is this all you can pull off?"
"there is no end, you knew this, you knew this"

Triggered,
I call upon my friend,
underneath my surface.
The friend that always got my back,
yet my own worst critic.
...She was laughing, smirking and slapping me back and forth at the back and front of my head.

The air is better up here though,
My skin glows better,
This pain feels like home,
I knew, 
I rather had this than being heartbroken over everything else down there.

I got my back,
"I got you" as i look down at my wobbly knees,
and i got you i said, 
as i clutched that piece of clothing i wore,
where my heart beats subtly.

It was not a dream though,
It happened before,
Only i wished that i could relive every single moment,
everytime i look up the shining sun,
everytime the breeze kissed my cheeks,
everytime i hear the leaves rustle, 
and everytime i feel that life is indeed good...

I remember that im at the top of that endless peak hills.

-blackleg- 18/12/18

Friday, January 22, 2010

Times Book Fair!!!


Yup!KKnians!book sale!book sale!not just any book sales but BEST SELLER at 30%!...Hurry,hurry day after tomorrow is gonna be your last chance!
Ain't difficult to find as TIMES held its book fair at the most srategic location this year ; Suria Sabah. Recently open in December, Suria Sabah is be the biggest shopping mall at the centre of Kota Kinabalu city. Only a walk away from the famous Gaya Street the sale starts since 07th January to 24th January...i know i know, thats 2 more days to go and im so OTT,well i've been busy!...i got...work,life,idleness and...subconscious mind is taking over,that's no crime!
Well, i went to shop twice within 3 days. When i arrived i was so excited i could feel my heart in my throat...(i have exclusive expression of metaphor),my mind goes....wow...this is a FAIR.There's probably about more than a thousand books stack up on each table, goes to the back for about 3 or 4 rows. First thing i did is looking for the book assistant yet to no avail. He showed me where to start though and i am glad. From one row to another, pain builds up on my neck and my eyes starts to squint yet, i got this feeling...about 1000 books, there surely be that book 'Emotional Intelligence' stack up somewhere. Its TIMES anyway...After 45 minutes i found something similiar,pick it up and turn to next lane, at the Best Seller collection.
Just taking a second thought, suddenly a miracles blazes in front of my eyes!Only RM38.+ and with the same author my heart jumps into my throat again. Ready to pay, i took a second look at the surrounding area AND!there it is like a hermit with his long hat and white beard the book with exactly the same author and title. Mind you, i've been looking for that book since October, my boss found it at cost RM90 and there it is sitting politely in front of my eyes. I waste no time, picks up another book and pay.
An hour with two books cost about RM50+ and the reward and knowledge is soon to grow and disperse. I love sharing, flamboyant as it may be but...it is love.

So folks, take your card with you,go to the nearest ATM and prepare to blown out on your tail fins!(quoted from Squidward Squarepants)

Friday, January 15, 2010

Homestay in…Papar

My Saturday afternoon absolutely worth it on that day. After meeting up with my colleagues we set out from our workplace and drive to a little town called Putatan for lunch. We decided to choose Thien Thien restaurant as our retreat and sanctuary while rain was pouring outside. I have chosen Chicken rice to be my stomach companion that day and…too bad it didn’t last that long. As soon as the last spoon enters my mouth my stomach still feels ‘empty’…I started to wish the best thing that could happen at Papar.

Our captain that day is Ibin and we started being loud inside the van since none of us actually know the direction of the ‘Koposizon Homestay’. Me and Agnes started singing a new song from three little boys about how hurtful it is to be heartbroken in love…kills our time though’. The view is absolutely spectacular, I could see houses built in short stilts…makes me wonder why it’s built on stilt anyway. On the left and right houses is surrounded by planted trees and it gives you a perspective of how cool and soothing it is when you are sitting and relaxing at one of the houses. While singing, my stomach starts to rumble…and I was saved by the nuts!...not just any other nuts mind you…its Macadamia Nuts from Hawaii…thanks to our GM…hehe

When we arrived at the turning point, Mr. William Lee greets us and led us with his van to enter the particular homestay location. The area is rather big and separated by several villages and the particular village is called Papaga village…not related to Papaya folks :)



The first house belongs to Madam Henrieta. It was not a house…it was a Mansion! Okay..seriously…it’s a house. But, a really big house. It has an exceptional beautiful front and back lawn with lushes of green trees, plants in pots, water tanks…I mean this is a homestay. You can’t be expecting a swimming pool or gym of some kind right. I took pictures from her personal room…smart lady :)  it has the room with the best view!.

Next we move to another house and i changed my mind about the best front lawn view…the second house is rather small with no second floor but the front law view is certainly breathtaking. I decided not to quickly made up my mind on which is the best as I am ready to expect a more surprisingly amazing views. Yet I am very sure that the real attraction of Papar homestay then other homestays is its suburb view and harmonious feeling.





The third house is equally interesting; the host provides a Pink room! That’s good news for you pink lovers! You can also enjoy the beautiful craft of a traditional dusun costume. The fourth house is ultimately my favorite…why?...because the host serves us Food!...yes yes! You may call me free loader, I don’t mind! Positive thinking aspect did mention that hunger desire could move a man to a thousand miles. Mine is from KK to Papar, that’s hungry enough. We get to taste the delicacy of Sago plant. Papar is also well known as a Sago producer. Sago can be made into several products including pancakes! The wonderful Mr. Lee serves us coffee and tea, banana fritters, jackfruit fritters and special for me and Joe ; nasi lemak in pandan leaves…I do wonder why out of 6 person the two of us were being offered, well doesn’t matter I did filled my stomach that day.







We also get the chance to chat with one of the clients at Mr. Lee house, Tyler a Canadian traveler and he shares with us his passion in meeting with the real people instead of just looking at the outer features of a culture. Suddenly I am thankful that mostly the homestay host is an elder people instead of just recently married…I can imagine how the dinner talk would be. During the coffee time Mr. Lee also shares with us a more unique delicacy of Sabah. ‘Butod’…as fancy as the name is; this wood worm can only be found underneath a sago bark. Some says it has a creamy taste. I like my coffee so I try to think as little as I could about the vision of ‘Butod’ as a meal. Mr. Lee has a frozen version. He kept it in a fridge, dead and frozen the creature still never fail me to feel squirmy. “We can still deep fry it” Mr. Lee said. I smile and push the ‘Butod’ to the next person beside me. One photo is enough.



After our stomach is filled, my camera memory has been minimized and after collecting some fliers, we took a group photo with the river as a background. Mr Lee wishes us well and generously offer us mango fruits from his tree. We set off for another an hour journey back to KK. I had a wonderful memory of the views in my head and I honestly wish that I was born in such serene village but then I realize…doesn’t matter where you born. Home is where the heart is.

-Everyone has ordinary beginning but not everybody has phenomenal ending-

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

A day experience with the raging Padas river.



Located in the interior part of Tenom, Padas held a reputation as an extreme sport as it is recognize as 3-4 water grade which means it require sharp and significant maneuvering. I have prepared myself for an ever exciting adventure, I had my bags packed and a good book as the journey to get to the train station will take approximately 2 hours. The view is absolutely astounding as I found myself neglecting my book although I have promised myself to finish reading it by next week. It was Sunday and traffic is slow and easy. We started off from KK and slowly drive by the Kimanis road and later we took a junction to Tenom. I could see paddy field and ‘dusun’ (fruit orchard)by the road side. It was a peaceful day with bright sunny sky and occasionally we drivo to the cloudy areas. As we continue to drive uphill the bus engine roars so loud and the driver occasionally open the door to let the breeze in. I do not mind that though as I could see the original view outside, the countless trees and mists overcast the background here and there. It definitely created a mystical feeling inside me.


We then stop over to a small restaurant and a mini grocery shop, without realizing it we are already at the Kimanis division. I took a walk to the back of the restaurant and found myself a beautiful scenic riverside view. The grass hanging over the banks, the river flows smoothly and I could see small banks where people can sit and enjoy nature’s serenity or simply fishing! Though I doubt if there may be any big catch as the water is shallow with tiny rocks at the bottom.

After 20 minutes break we continue to the town of Tenom which is well known for its coffee. We stop over by a public toilet to change and continue a 5 minutes drive where we finally stop over at the train station. However the train temporarily stops operating due to technical issues.






Yet, fret no more as there is a creative alternative to replace the train ride program. We have a trolley instead!. We sat on a square board platform which at each end a steel wheels is attached to it. Later the locals which are mostly Murut and Dusun people then operate the trolley by using stick to push it forward and I feel some kind of melancholy inside and touched by the way the locals work their way out of poverty. With only RM5 charge per person, they will push us for about 30 minutes and risking their equipment which may cost them 2 weeks of trips to have enough pay to buy replacements.
A kid was pushing two ladies and broke one of his wheels while the man that pushes us is not at all bitter and whistling the whole way to the rafting starting point.

I was impressed with their strength and willingness although this is the actual way the local people maneuver from their houses to another place such us the town, yet I still could not help but thinking…what would the government do about it? And most importantly when will these people could travel easily without using much energy pushing themselves with their groceries. Some of the distance may take about 10KM and I saw a young boy of seven pushing his mother and their load of groceries along the train tracks. I sincerely hope that their adversity will stop in the future with the coming of new sets of train, however I found it to be an advantage to the locals at the same time as it offered more job opportunity.

Upon arrival we were greeted with fruits snack and followed by a briefing from the river guide. Ours is a funny one as he explained that if anybody happens to fell into the water, keep on smiling and never tangle the safety rope around your neck when being rescued…you can imagine…it’s not a pretty sight if it happen. After everyone is set with their gear ; helmet and life jacket we walk to the riverbanks and I noticed two locals were inside their kayak and I thought..”wow, it surely fun to work with a rafting agency where you could work and play at the same time! “ and I found out about the truth later within 45 minutes.

Meanwhile, we get inside the inflatable raft and took position, for about 30 minutes we practice our paddling skill and understanding instruction until we float into the first rapid, the ‘Headhunter’ rapid. It was nothing that I expected! It was way beyond what I expected; the surge was even deeper, higher and stronger. I finally understand when the river guide explained to us earlier that the water level is high on that day. The waves reach up to about 4 metres high and come crashing down into our raft. I must admit I felt panicked as I am not a good swimmer. I was thankful that day as one of our river guide is an experienced staff and standing only 5 foot tall he could simply pull a man which probably twice his own weight back into the raft.




None of us in the raft fell out accidentally, some of our guest and our river guide jump into the water during the swimming session at the milder rapid called the ‘Lambada’. However, the second boat capsized after about 45 minutes of the program and I was impressed by the team work shown during the event. The rest of the 2 raft wait until all guest successfully pulled back into their raft. Based from the guest personal opinion they did get panicked as they fell in the middle of the rapid. However, from far away you could see how simple the rescue process being carried. Two kayakers stand by near the capsized raft and both river guide swim out to reach each guest and pull them back into the raft…that is when I understand what the kayakers really doing out there in the middle of the river gush.

After swimming session we paddle to the river banks and get off for lunch at the restaurant. I did not eat much as I do not want to gain any extra weight into the raft later. Again it was a beautiful experience, the staff in the restaurant has two kids age about 5 and 6 and they run freely without shoes on the ground and I wish my kids could do the same rather than just playing at the theme park. I bet there is less stress around such serene area and not too much expense needed as there is less temptation. Yet, I am happy where I belong as the famous quote saying ‘home is where the heart is’ and my heart is with my families.


Soon after that we continue our rafting activity, there is another three rapids to go, that lunch break did not subside my fear as my heart still throb every time the waves crash our raft. When we reach to the ‘Snake house’ rapid I was feeling very comfortable as the fact that there is no more rapid upfront and the rapid flows for about 200 meters with just choppy waves and no extreme surge. The view was amazing as you can see houses far apart from each other and seems like it is out of nowhere, I started to imagine what would they do if suddenly they ran out of rice or any food supplies or if there is any emergency; how fast can they get help?. They built their houses near the river banks and surrounded by either their fruit orchard or rice field. It was a beautiful view with the sound of birds and the river while dark clouds hanging over the sky when we reach to the ending point where we took a train to the town called Beaufort.

The train ride was equally beautiful as we see houses with ponds and even cars which mean the train is not the only transportation available on the area yet we did not see any road at all as it was covered by trees. To me people who live here is lucky as they have plenty of harmony which most city people lacks. Upon arrival at Beaufort, the bus has waited for us and we change to fresh clothing at the public toilet. The journey home took another 1 hour and 45 minutes and we drive in the dark and reach KK at almost 7PM.


I went home with a sore arms, waist and legs and a happy contented feeling. I had my fun yet I will not do it again, not because it has no fun but because I have children that will need my full attention and to me that is a responsibility as a mother to give 110% attention to her children. That night I decided that I have my joy but my real joy in life is watching cartoon with my kids and occasionally reading a good book at home sipping to a sweet warm milky tea.